Here I go...

One Adventure After Another!

Monday, May 25, 2020

Jean Luc

My portrait of Jean Luc is coming along. 
Tomorrow I'll work on the chest fur 
and then do the highlights 
and I may be finished by Wednesday!


I took the steri-strips off of my incision today. 
They were just driving me mad.
Those, along with the feeling
that I have wash cloths rolled up and 
stuck under my arms -
I had to make something better,
and the steri-strips were the only thing
I had control over.

The incision is healing nicely.
It's a little scary having the steri-strips off,
but I feel less bound up.

This week I'm packing up
and getting ready for my temporary move 
to Portland.
Joe has been kind enough to rent me his condo
for a few months 
while I go to physical therapy and finish healing.
I'm not sure how long that will last -
we'll just play it by ear,
but I'm expecting to stay at least 2 months,
maybe longer.

It will be nice to have my 'own' space again,
where I can get back on my diet,
take my supplements more regularly,
and stretch and do yoga and weight training
to get back my strength.

Oregon is beautiful this time of year,
and I'm really enjoying it!
Thanks to Cameron and Michael
for taking care of me before, during, and after my surgery!
I'm going to miss them,
and I'm going to miss my "grand-dogs,"
Data and Jean Luc!

Life is good!
Love,
Annie

Tuesday, May 12, 2020

Starting a New Drawing as I Recover

Well, my two days of "do nothing" are up today and so I began a new drawing. This one is of Jean Luc, my son's wonderful Golden Retriever.


I took about 2 to 3 hours 
deciding what colors to use on him. 
I watched a video my teacher made 
on Golden Retrievers and for the most part 
I will be using the colors she suggests. 
There are a few changes in his coat colors.

Here is my color chart 
which doesn't include eyes or nose.
 Lots of colors in a Golden Retriever!


Before I drew on the Pastelmat, 
I did a quick mock-up with pencil
 on printer paper, 
just to make sure I had the right size.


Next I drew the cartoon on Pastelmat.
Then I began by working on his left eye.
I just wanted to feel like I had started.
I will get much more done tomorrow.
But here is Jean Luc for tonight:


Today is the 19th day 
since my Double Mastectomy.
I'm healing up well.
I have good range of motion 
and can move my arms in most directions.
I have to move them slow 
when reaching above my head,
and if I put my hands behind my head 
to make "chicken wings" 
it is difficult to open the elbows.
So I do need some physical therapy 
and stretching,
but don't want to do too much 
too soon
and split my incision.
I tend to lift things, 
then realize I shouldn't.
It's hard for me to be still so much.
I'm generally a very busy person.
I'll be happy to get back to the pencils tomorrow.

As far as pain goes, 
it's weird. 
Most of the pain I feel now is 
under my arms, which are swollen.
My chest over the incision 
is still numb, 
though it feels like when you go to the dentist
and get a shot, 
and feeling is just starting to return.
I plan on doing a lot of massage
to get those nerves to reconnect.
I believe it can be done.
But I need to be patient and wait
until my incision is healed completely.

I still have the steri-strips on the incision.
They are supposed to fall off on their own.
I shower every morning 
and "hope" they'll come off,
but they must have superglued 
those suckers on!

Anyway, that's the update.
I have an appointment 
with my surgeon on Monday.
I'm hoping she will send me 
to Physical Therapy soon.

That's all for now.
Stay safe!
Love,
Annie



Wednesday, April 29, 2020

The BEST News Ever!


Yesterday afternoon I got the best news 
since this began.

My surgical nurse called 
with the results of my post op lab work.

:::drumroll:::

The lymph nodes were CLEAR.

The tumor had shrunk to 
5% 
(yes FIVE PERCENT!) 
of it's original size.

Dr. Johnson got it ALL 
and there were CLEAR MARGINS!

There was NO EVIDENCE OF CANCER 
in any of the rest of the tissue.

This is the BEST news I could have!
It makes it all worth it.

Now, I'm supposed to be on Letrozole 
for 5 years, then I'm done.

I'm trying to decide if or if not 
I'll stay on the Letrozole.

The side effects since they changed the brand 
are difficult.

I was originally on TEVA brand 
and didn't feel any side effects.
Then the brand changed 
because the pharmacy changed their contract,
and BOOM!  
Side effects hit like a bomb!

This could be 
because it was early in the game, 
and the side effects took a while to manifest, 
or it could be the off-brand's dyes and fillers. 
There's really no way to know 
until I get back on the TEVA. 
But I really suspect, with my MCS, 
it's the dyes and fillers in the off-brand.

My beautiful bright yellow little 
sunshine pill 
is now a dusky dark ugly orange thing 
that seems to make me ache all over.

Whichever brand, 
the common side effects of Letrozole 
are well documented.

It most likely WILL give me osteoporosis, 
and WILL most likely ruin my teeth.

It makes me ache in the mornings.
My feet feel like they have knives in them.

I'm just not sure if I'm willing 
to live 5 years with this.

I have found a pharmacy 
that will get the TEVA brand Letrozole 
beginning on May 1 
so I promised my surgeon 
I would try it for a month.

Then we'll see...

I'm VERY convinced that the supplements along with the guided visualization I did also had a lot to do with the tumor shrinking. Now that surgery is over, and I'm almost finished with the post op meds, I'll get back to my KETO diet, my supplements, and will continue the guided visualization.

Anyway, I also woke up to my stimulus check, 
so today is also going to be 
a VERY GOOD DAY!

I hope your day is good too!

Love,
Annie




Thursday, April 23, 2020

The Night Before The Day After. . .



It's 3:33 am and I can't sleep.

It's the night before my double mastectomy.
Well, I guess literally it's the morning before.
My surgery is at noon today.
I have to be at the hospital by 10 am.

I'm not sure WHAT I'm feeling.

I'm talking to my breasts,
telling them thank you again,
imagining what it will feel like
to wake up tomorrow afternoon without them.

The left breast is "twinging" a bit,
like it knows something big is about to happen.

I don't really feel afraid,
just weird,
like I SHOULD be scared,
and wonder why I'm not,
and wondering if that's normal?

Lots of hopes:
I hope the surgeon will get all of the cancer.
I hope she will give me a nice flat closure.
I hope it won't look ugly.
I hope the cancer has not spread to the lymph nodes.
I hope I don't get lymphodema.
I hope I won't have a lot of pain.
I hope I will heal quickly.
I hope I'll be cancer free.
I hope I will live to be 100.
I hope...
I hope ...
I hope  ...

What a strange night . . . 

Tuesday, April 21, 2020

Miraculous!



I had my Pre-Op Appointment with my breast surgeon today.

Surgery is Thursday.

She actually used the word "miracle!"

The tumor has all but disappeared.

In addition to Letrozole 
I've been doing my version 
of KETO and daily 
Guided Meditation/Visualization.

I still have cancer, 
and will still need the double mastectomy, 
and she told me 
to keep taking the Letrozole (bummer) 
but was VERY positive about my outcome.

I left smiling.

Thank you ALL for your prayers and good wishes.
They're working.

Love,

Annie

Wednesday, April 15, 2020

Breast Art





Today I practiced making a plaster cast of my torso.
Two reasons:

1) So I remember

2) I'm an artist so how could I NOT do this?

Woman often did these of their pregnant bellies
 in the 60's and 70's.

Now it's a popular thing 
for mastectomy warriors to do.
They can be kept or auctioned off for charity.

I practiced today.
It was difficult alone, 
but I'm in quarantine 
so can't have any help me.
But it turned out 'ok' 
and I learned a LOT.

Tomorrow I think I'll do 2 or 3 more.

Here is today's



And here are a few ideas for decorating :









Sunday, April 12, 2020

A Conversation With My Breasts




You were late showing up.

And now you’re leaving the party early.

In keeping in tune
with my Leo personality,
You are quite whimsical, aren’t you?

Because this change came out of nowhere! 

From the time of my birth, 
I’ve ridden the wave of life, 
Successfully, I like to think. 

Through childhood and adult abandonment, 
Through spinal meningitis at age 7.
Through being kidnapped.
Through being hit by a car. 
Through being run over by a tractor.
Through sexual and physical and emotional abuse.
Through an airplane crash that killed my father and beloved brother.
Through cheating husbands and divorce,
Through loss of job and through struggle,

Through all this,
I’ve taken the lemons I’ve been given
And made a lemonade 
That would make anyone’s mouth water.
Life has been GOOD! 

And now you hand me this huge sack of lemons 
And ask me to make lemonade,
Again. 

Well, it’s gonna be difficult, 

But I’m going to give it my best shot! 

Oh you beauties, 
I have such wonderful memories of us!
You and I!
Our life together!

You showed up late, as I said earlier.
My younger cousin, Janie,
Touted a bra at 8.
I was so jealous I could have screamed.
She called me "honey" and "sweetie,"
and I felt lesser.
She flaunted it and made me hate her;
She shouldn't have gotten breasts before me!

I think I was around 11 when I noticed the
Two tender buds swelling from my chest.
And from the time you first blossomed,
I loved you dearly.

Then I began to share you.

The first to adore you was a boy named Dave,
(Or was it Wayne?)
In a haystack in the barn,
(Or was it in the backseat of a bright yellow Chevy?)
After a half century, the details run together, but,
Wherever it was,
I remember being exhilarated! 
Electrified!
Whoah! 
This was a GOOD thing! 
You rocked my world! 

It was the beginning of a long and wonderful life
 Together. 
You and I. 
You and I. 
You and I. 
Us.

You brought me the most extreme pleasure.

I loved looking at you in the mirror.
Two beautiful mounds, growing each year,
Until you settled into a comfortable 34-B cup.

Then came pregnancy. 
Holy Hell! 
You GREW! 
You SWELLED to a giant 40-D 
You were HARD and ANGRY and full of milk 
Ready to feed a hungry child. 
That was the only time you caused me pain. 
And it was only for a day or two, 
Until we settled into a feeding schedule, 
But dang, that was crazy!

I remember
Those days,
The feeling of my milk “coming down.”
There’s nothing like it.
A tingle that begins high in the chest,
Then sparkles down to the nipples,
And causes milk to spurt out 
Unexpected and uninvited. 
A time of wet blouses,
Laughter,
Joy.

I remember nursing my children.
You did such a great job!
There has been nothing sweeter than gazing 
Down at the face
Of my sweet newborn babies
As they tugged hungrily at you.
You provided life,
Food, for a brand new being.
It blew my mind.
Three times I was given this pleasure. 
Three sons took sustenance from my body, 
I was only able to do it because of you. 
YOU did that. 

Years passed and we had a wonderful life together! 
I remember other fun times with you. 
Sexy tops with plunging necklines. 
Bikinis and crop tops. 
Topless sun bathing in the beautiful Caribbean
and in the hot tubs of Bakersfield. 
Loving caresses from husbands and lovers. 

The delight you have given me 
Has been indescribable. 
Beyond anything I could ever dream of. 

I just want to thank you so much
For all the joy, pleasure, and life we have shared.
We have been quite a team!

You have been remarkable!
You never aged.
You never sagged or changed.
You stayed beautiful and plump and sensitive.
And I have loved you so much.

I still love you.

And then, out of nowhere, 
On Christmas 2019, 
You gave me a gift that wasn’t on my list. 
Laying in bed, a cold night, 
I ran my hands up the left side of my body and felt 
Something that shouldn’t be there. 
A lump. 
A LUMP! 
A lump? 
WTF? 
What WAS that? 

A bit of panic. 
Doctor appointment. 
Mammogram. 
Ultrasound. 
Biopsy. 
Diagnosis. 
Papillary Invasive Carcinoma. 
Double mastectomy. 

First “What?” 
Then "Really?" 
Then "Where the hell did THAT come from?" 

I eat clean. 
I exercise. 
I don’t smoke or drink or do drugs. 

Then “Why?” 
Then "What caused it?" 

Did I bump myself in the bad fall I took 
Two years ago?

Could this be something I manifested
From the deep sorrow of being abandoned by people 
I poured my soul out to,
People I nurtured and taught and loved so deeply,
Who turned on me like wolves,
Who lied about me,
Who twisted my motives,
Then walked away and broke my heart?

Did it grow from the deep pain in my breast I felt 
When this disloyalty reared its ugly head, 
Knocking me to my knees in painful disbelief? 

Or did I create this myself? 
Do this myself? 
To myself? 
To you? 

Or could it be a result of the chemical-laden environment we live in. 
The airplanes spraying the sky, 
The autos spewing their filth into the air,
The poisoned water and food,
The fragranced laundry products I can’t escape from.

There’s just no way of knowing.
Nobody to blame.
Not even myself.

It just “is.” 

Well, no use crying over spilt milk, as they say. 

Bootstraps, it’s time! 
Let’s take these fucking lemons 
And make some lemonade! 

Yes, I’ll miss you two more than you’ll ever know. 
Mostly I’ll miss the pleasure you give me. 

I look down at you, and you still look perfect. 
You are beautiful! 
I heft you in my two hands and squeeze you, 
And you still FEEL perfect. 
I run my fingers over your nipples, 
And you still respond, like magic. 
And THAT electrifying feeling 
is what I’ll miss most.

That part makes me very sad.

Sometimes I feel like I’m stuck in the Twilight Zone.

But no staying sad.
Yes, I’ll miss you. 
But I’d miss this wonderful life more!

Doc said 50% chance of a recurrence 
With just a lumpectomy or single mastectomy, 
And only 1%-3% with a double mastectomy. 
Well, the “double” it is. 
Onward and forward.
No more looking back.

And now, here we are, 
Coronavirus pandemic looming,
Nine days and counting.

I’ve ordered plaster cast material.
I’m going to make a cast of you,
Paint it, and hang it on my wall
In memory
Of you.
I’ll make it bright and perky and colorful, 
Like you have been. 
In this way, you can continue to give pleasure, 
To me as well as to others,
Just in a different way.

Oh, you two wonderful old friends.
You whimsical, bouncy, bubbly old friends!
We've spent 67 wonderful years together!
And now, you’ve thrown me for a loop.
I surely wasn’t ready for this.
But the time is nearly here
For you to take your leave forever. 

Nine days and counting. 

I’m going to miss you. 
I’m going to miss you. 
I’m going to miss you! 

Love Forever, 
Annie




Friday, April 03, 2020

My Double Mastectomy Surgery is "On" and Things . . .

I got an email from my surgical nurse yesterday.

My double mastectomy surgery, originally scheduled for April 23, is "on."

I will spend one night in the hospital then come to my youngest son's home to recover. The original plan was to go to my elder son's home, as he is a surgical nurse. But since the outbreak of the virus, surgeries at his hospital have dried up and he has been moved into another department and we are afraid of being exposed. So my youngest son's home is the safest place.

I've been chatting with other women who have had double mastectomies and I've been collecting "things" I'll need for this surgery. 


Mastectomy Pillows for sleeping and riding in the car - to protect the incision site

These are "drain" holders - I'll have at least one, and maybe two drains attached to my body for a couple of weeks. These will hold those and keep them from swinging around.

This holds my drains when I shower.

A bidet sprayer which attaches to the toilet. 

A hot/cold bottle with a straw so I can drink while lying down

A "wedge" to sleep on for a few weeks to keep my upper body in a semi-sitting position.

I also have a couple of post surgery camisoles that were gifted me by Providence Breast Clinic. These zip up the front so I can easily get into them. They have detachable pockets inside to hold the drains. 





In addition, they have pockets to insert my "Knitted Knockers" prosthesis when and if I'm ready. The Knitted Knockers were made by volunteers and are gifted free of charge to mastectomy patients. A gift of love, they come in all colors and sizes. You can order them with or without nipples, and you can order special water-friendly ones to be used in your swimsuit.





If you know anyone undergoing breast cancer and chemo or mastectomy surgery, there are several very supportive Facebook groups I belong to.

One is simply called Mastectomy Support Group and is a closed group.  It's a good place to hear other women's stories and to ask advice or just vent and get support.

The other group I belong to is called "Flat and Fabulous."  I've joined this group because I have decided NOT to have any reconstructive surgery. There are two of these; one for after you've had your surgery where the "C" word is NOT discussed and one where you can discuss your cancer and/or treatments.  Both are filled with very supportive women. 

So, despite Mr. Covid, my surgery is on.

Thank you all so very much for your support. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers for a positive outcome and for protection from the virus. 

You are ALL in MY prayers during this crazy time!
Love,
Annie

Sunday, March 15, 2020

We Are Home and My Thoughts . . .

Joe was prepared with a mask


Well, 
Joe and I are feeling lucky
to be home from Spain,
and safe, after our very short Camino!

In late February, we thought, like many, 
that this Coronavirus news 
was being blown way out of proportion
 and would soon blow over. 
So we chose to leave on March 4, 
expecting to walk in Spain for 6 weeks.


The first 7 days were awesome.

Normal.

People in Spain didn't seem to be concerned at all about the virus.


By March 8 we had made it to Merida 
and spent 3 wonderful days there.
We saw no concern.
No masks.
No panic.


On March 11 we walked to Aljucin.
We checked into the albergue there and rested.
Still no concern.

UNTIL we found out that the albergue
in the next village, Alcuescar, was closed.
Not because they had cases of the virus,
but because they cared for 
people with compromised immune systems
there, and didn't want other people
bringing in the virus.

Because of this, 
we took a taxi to Alcuescar next morning,
March 12,
and walked to Aldea de Cano.
There, all seemed well.
Nobody was wearing masks.
Nobody seemed concerned. 


However, that evening, in the bar, 
I was reading notices on the Camino forum 
that things were getting worse 
all over the world,
and that travel bans were beginning to take place. 

I was beginning to get a nervous feeling in my gut and I told Joe, 
"Maybe we should think about HOW 
we would get home if we were forced to leave 
in a hurry. 
Should we walk on tomorrow?"

We decided to wait until morning, 
and to sleep on it.

There were several other pilgrims
in the albergue that night.
None seemed to be concerned.

On Friday, March 13, 
we got up and had breakfast 
in the albergue 
and waited for the bar to open.


When it opened, we got online 
and there we saw the warning from Ivar 
and the moderators about not starting a Camino, 
and about getting yourself home 
if you were ON the Camino.


We quickly decided we'd better 
try to get home.


What was sad to me 
was how the demeanor of the bar owners changed, literally, overnight.



I was ignored at the bar. 
I had to follow the lady up and down the bar
 to get a coffee.
It never happened.
She would look right through me 
as though I did not exist,
and go to a local person.
There were maybe 7 locals there.


My phone was not working. 
Joe's phone was nearly dead, 
and so we asked her if she would help 
and call us a taxi.
She ignored us.

I asked another lady sitting at the bar, 
and after 3 requests from HER, 
the bar lady went and got a flyer 
with a taxi number on it and shoved it at me. 
She would not make the call.

It was so weird.
She had been so friendly the day before.
I'm sure she was just scared out of her wits,
wondering why these pilgrims
were walking through Spain,
possibly spreading this virus,
that we still didn't know much about.


We managed to get a call through on Joe's phone, 
and hired a taxi to Caceres, 
where we caught a bus to Madrid.


In the meantime, I "Signaled" my son 
back in Oregon, and asked him to search 
for a flight 

from Madrid to Los Angeles.


Several airlines were price gouging
asking $2000-$3000 for one-way seats! 

British Air, American Airlines, IberiaAir 
were all charging THOUSANDS of dollars 
for a one way flight home!

They had a few flights listed in the $400-$500 range, but when you chose them, 
they would tack on many charges.


It was crazy.

We were lucky that my son travels constantly 
and was able to get seats for us 
from Madrid to Miami then LAX 
on one of the last available flights out. 
He had to try for a long time. 
Flights were disappearing off the boards 
and being canceled as he worked. 
It was pretty stressful.

We met one man who paid $10,000 
for a flight home to Australia. 

TEN THOUSAND DOLLARS! 

This should be illegal 
and I hope airlines that do this 
will get horrendous fines, 
but right now, it's just the way it is.


The Madrid airport was like a tomb. 

The only flights were flights coming IN 
with Spanish residents.

We arrived early afternoon at the airport 
and our flight was not to leave until the next day.
We waited at the airport for over 14 hours 
for our fight.

We found a closed restaurant 
and sat at a table 
where we were able to charge our phones.

We were working at this point 
on being awake over 24 hours.

We prayed the flight wouldn't be canceled.

On the way to board, 
we were herded to a desk 
where they interviewed Joe (not me.)

They asked Joe his name, 
what he did for a living, his address, 
questions that didn't seem to make any sense 
under these current conditions.


We finally boarded.
About 1/3 of the seats were empty.
Many people were now wearing masks.

Some, mostly young people, were obviously sick, coughing, and NOT wearing masks, 
which upset me very much.
Joe and I had taken masks with us, 
so we were able to mask up.
This flight was pretty good.
They served us food and drinks many times 
and were very kind.


When we arrived in Miami, 
it was announced that we would be screened 
upon arrival.

We were only allowed to un-board 
20 passengers at a time.

We were met by officials who were friendly, 
but sorely lacking in logical training
in my opinion.
For instance, the same gloves were used
for every person,
spreading this virus, in my opinion,
if anyone DID have it.

Since Joe and I were traveling together, 
they only interviewed him.

I thought that was bizarre 
since I was the one coughing 
from my MCS and exposure to perfume 
on the flight.

They asked his name, address, 
and if he'd had contact with anyone with the virus.
They took his temperature.
Then we had to go through customs.


Unlike usual, when we do NOT have to go back through security on connecting flights, 
we DID have to go back through.


We were separated because I have TSA pre-boarding, and he does not.

Even with TSA pre-boarding, 
I had to remove items I don't usually have to remove and it was really stressful and confusing.
And there again 
were those gloves,
doing pat downs on one passenger,
and then the next without changing.
Crazy.

After getting through security, 
and finding Joe again, 
we were rushing to find our connecting flight 
in the huge Miami airport 
when I realized I had left my jacket 
and eyeglasses at security.


Joe went ahead. 
I went back and after a search, found my things.
It was crazy, and very stressful.
The gate we were leaving from 
seemed like miles away 
and I arrived just as Joe was boarding.


Our flight from Miami to LAX began
fairly empty.
At the last moment,
it was filled, 
according to the stewardess, 
with people from all over the world 
who were on a cruise ship that came into Miami 
and unloaded clients. 
Nearly all of them seemed stressed 
and just trying to GET HOME. 

It was horrible. 
Children and babies were crying.
It was hot. 
There was no food served 
unless you paid for it.
Seems like under the conditions,
the airlines could have done a lot better!


I don't know where they found that plane, 
but it was nasty dirty 
(literally there were chunks of "stuff" on the floor), 
the trays had spilled coffee on them 
and it was NOT the best experience I have had. 

We had run out of Clorox wipes 
so did our best to wipe things down with baby wipes.
 They sat an old couple right behind us 
from the cruise ship. 

The old guy leaned all over Joe's seat 
while getting to his own, 
and at this point, our nerves were pretty shot. 

We had bulkhead seats - two abreast - 
and the seats behind us were in rows of 3, 
so there was a big open space between me 
and the woman. 
Once they sat down, the man coughed 
all through the flight, 
that dry scary cough you are told to worry about. 

The woman sneezed about 5 times 
without covering her mouth,
and scared the poop out of me. 
I had my head covered with a blanket 
because I was so paranoid. 


By the time we got to LAX 
we had been awake nearly 2 days 
and were both punchy.

After getting off the plane, 
I immediately found a bathroom 
where I soaped up my hands, face, 
and arms and washed the best I could.


Joe had thought ahead 
and had the smarts to reserve a car from Madrid, 
so we were able to jump on a shuttle, 
get a rental car, 
and get on the freeway pretty quickly.


There were big creepy lighted signs 
on the freeway saying:

"COVID-19. 

"LESS IS MORE. 
AVOID LARGE GROUPS"

Whoah!


Nothing has felt so life-changing 
in such a short time since 9-11, for me.
I have an elderly mother in California
that I could not see for 14 days,
and a double mastectomy scheduled 
at home in Oregon in a month,
and I was worried they'll close the borders
between the states.
Then what would I do?


Life as we knew it two weeks ago
has changed, 
and feels like it will never be the same.


And it only took about 3 days 
to go from "Happy on my Camino" 
to 

"Go home. 
"Don't talk to anyone. 
"Don't meet in groups 
where you can discuss what's going on. 
"Don't go shopping. 
"Stay in your house."


The next morning,
as we watched the news,
we realized how lucky we had been.
We saw hundreds of people
jammed together into small rooms
in Chicago O'Hare.
If there was ever a good way to spread the virus,
that was it.
In addition,
they were complaining of wait times
up to 6 hours.
We got through in less than an hour.


And so,

Joe and I both did our14 day self-quarantine 
as instructed.
I packed up the van,
stopped by to wave at my mother,
then headed to Oregon
so I could be here for my surgery.
Since then, things have worsened considerably,
and though I haven't had news that my surgery is postponed or cancelled,
I'm considering postponing it
until the worst of the virus wave is over.
I'm just not too comfortable 
spending time in the hospital,
with all of the active cases of Corona
in Oregon.to wrap my head around the past 11 days. 


I am praying this all blows over
sooner than expected, 
that no more people die, 
and that the Camino can get back to normal soon.


In the meantime, I'm just happy to be back on familiar, 
though bizarre, 
soil.

What an adventure life is!
And sometimes it leaves you with scabby knees.
I'm feeling the burn.


Love,

Annie